3.12.2013

Ashes of American Flags

The cash machine is blue and green
For a hundred in twenties and a small service fee
I could spend three dollars and sixty-three cents
On Diet Coca-Cola and unlit cigarettes

I wonder why we listen to poets
When nobody gives a fuck
How hot and sorrowful
This machine begs for luck

All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new


I want a good life
With a nose for things
A fresh wind and bright sky
To enjoy my suffering


A hole without a key
If I break my tongue
Speaking of tomorrow
How will it ever come?

All my lies are always wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new


I'm down on my hands and knees
Every time the doorbell rings
I shake like a toothache
When I hear myself sing

All my lies are only wishes
I know I would die if I could come back new

I would like to salute
The ashes of American flags
And all the fallen leaves
Filling up shopping bags





-Wilco


12.23.2012

Tougher Than The Rest




Lately, I have been playing this Bruce Springsteen cover by Camera Obscura on loop. She has the cutest accent and a sweet voice. Plus, I also feel like I can relate to this song at this point in my life. I feel tougher than before, maybe a bit jaded but still open to love...because...love is grand. 



Well it ain’t no secret 
I’ve been around a time or two 
                                         Well I don’t know baby maybe you’ve been around too 
Well there’s another dance
 All you gotta do is say yes
 And if you’re rough and ready for love
 Honey I’m tougher than the rest
 If you’re rough enough for love
 Baby I’m tougher than the rest

9.09.2012

You aaaare a radio staaaaar

It's a little blurry and quiet but this is great scene (among many) from the movie Take This Waltz. 
Makes me want to go on a ride with someone I have a crush on. 
(Minus the awkward part at the end of course.)

9.02.2012

Something has me

I am sick with wantingAnd it's evil and it's dauntingHow I let everything I cherish lay to wasteI am lost in greed this time, it's definitely meI point fingers but there's no one there to blame
I need for somethingNo, let me break it down againI need for somethingBut not more medicineI am sick with wantingAnd it's evil how it's got me
And everyday is worse than the one beforeThe more I have the more I think:I'm almost where I need to beIf only I could get a little more
I need for somethingNow let me break it down againI need for somethingBut not more medicineSomething has me (Something has me)Oh something has me (Something has me)Acting like someone I don't wanna beSomething has me (Something has me)Oh something has me (Something has me)Acting like someone I know isn't meIll with want and poisoned by this ugly greed
Temporary is my timeAin't nothin on this world that's mineExcept the will I found to carry onFree is not your right to chooseIt's answering what's asked of youTo give the love you find until it's gone
I need for somethingNow let me break it down againI need for somethingBut not more medicineSomething has me (Something has me)Oh something has me (Something has me)Acting like someone I don't wanna beSomething has me (Something has me)Oh something has me (Something has me)Acting like someone I know isn't meIll with want and poisoned by this ugly greedIll with want and poisoned by this ugly greed
   -Ill With Want by The Avett Brothers. 

8.27.2012

the resonant frequency of clouds



a favorite scene of mine from a movie
 that has grown on me over the years.
and michel gondry...that's a brain i'd like to walk around in. 

8.26.2012

Sassy (under)Pants

My purchase of these made me so happy today! 
I can't wait to wear them...
It's the little things that make me happy. 

6.19.2012

Tunes on a Tuesday



Music has been so healing for me lately. 
These boys make some of the sweetest sounds I've ever heard...enjoy.

5.26.2012

Cutters

"I know all about you Midnight Cutters...and you must be stopped."
 - Mitra, my hair stylist on girls who cut their
 own bangs on a whim. 
I just love her :)

4.20.2012

Happy Friday!

This song - Whole Wide World by Wreckless Eric - came on my ipod today while I was driving and it put a big ol' smile on my face. It always reminds me of this scene from Stranger Than Fiction, which is a favorite movie of mine. Hope it makes you smile, too...

4.18.2012

The Coral Sea

The opening few paragraphs of this book gave me chills.

     "The first time I saw Robert he was sleeping. I stood over him, this boy of twenty, who sensing my presence opened his eyes and smiled. With few words he became my friend, my compeer, my beloved adventure.
     When he became ill, I wept and could not stop weeping. He scolded me for that, not with words but with a simple look of reproach, and I ceased.
     When I saw him last we sat in silence and he rested his head on my shoulder. I watched the light changing over his hands, over his work, and over the whole of our lives. Later, returning to his bed, we said goodbye. But as I was leaving something stopped me and I went back to his room. He was sleeping. I stood over him, a dying man, who sensing my presence opened his eyes and smiled.
     When he passed away I could not weep so I wrote. Then I took the pages and set them away. Here are those pages, my farewell to my friend, my adventure, my unfettered joy."

-Patti Smith on Robert Maplethorpe


I love the way she writes about her relationship with Robert. I feel like I can relate my own experiences with certain people to the friendship and love that they had for each other. 
Some people, you just love no matter what, unconditionally. And that's that. You can go away for a while, mentally, emotionally, or physically, but sooner or later you find each other again 
and it's just...good. Maybe the context of your love has changed. It doesn't always have to be romantic love. Perhaps it has morphed into a beautiful mutual friendship or maybe it's just a quick loving smile between you two in passing. This person, this presence, is a strange comfort, but a wonderful comfort nonetheless. 

{Patti and Robert}